brb_evil: (Eight's Ingenuity)
I'm going MAAAAD. I applied several years ago to a massive RP called [livejournal.com profile] polychromatic as Donna Noble. I was rejected.
That rejection has stuck with me ever since, making me afraid of the roleplay. I hate being told my writing isn't good enough. I mean, I don't mind editing but something about this really...hurts. And I have no doubt that my writing WASN'T good enough. It still stung.

Anyway, I've applied again, this time as the Master. Back when I applied the first time, I knew nearly nothing about the Master. Now I've been writing and roleplaying him for a year. Will this mean I'm good enough? Well, I don't know. I'm waiting on a bloody response. I did only post yesterday but still. MENTAL. I just want to KNOW really. I mean, I've always got the 50's AU to comfort me if I don't get in but this feels like me facing my fears or something.

I'm worried I didn't say enough and my post was too short. I'm worried that I don't actually understand the Master's character. I'm worried that they hate my writing style on principle. I'm worried that even if I DO get in I won't understand how to do anything, I'll get completely overwhelmed and I'll get voted out or something. How does one plot? Do I know how to do that? Holy crap, you guys!

The sooner I know I'm not in it, the sooner I can move on.
Shit, pessimism.
LOW EXPECTATIONS MEAN LESS DISAPPOINTMENT, U GAIZ.

brb_evil: (kermit bees)
The character journals went all serious on me and Leah, guys.
First, the Doctor pissed off the Master by insinuating that the Master missed him and was affectionate.
And then the Master was EXTREMELY petty and FFFFFFFFFF

[livejournal.com profile] theatricmood:
Did he (Jacob) NEED to stay in the house though? He kept using the good glasses...

[livejournal.com profile] moralsremitted: His home was in ARIZONA. I'm not a COMPLETE bastard to my minions.
Unlike you and some of your COMPANIONS, I might add.
Tell me, did you ever ACTUALLY go back and get that Companion of yours, Miss Smith?
Or that one, the name you keep mentioning and assuming I won't notice...Jamie, was it?

[livejournal.com profile] theatricmood:Your door better be dead locked.

And then we were both like "WUT NAO, DOCTAH?!?!" so I wrote out what happened in Skype with tips from Leah. I edited this a LOT. Because most of it was just me waffling about what happened next and Leah going "OH SHIT". I left a small bit of it in so you get the idea. XD

 

LONG STORY IS LONG )

 

So, uh, now there's a BLOODY MASSIVE PLOT and the Doctor has left home and the Master is going to go fucking APESHIT and and....well, fuck guys, we thought this was a CRACK AU. Remember how I said Leah and I should stop our latenight talking? That still stands.

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